exciting times

1. today i had:
one slice of pizza
two bananas
a glass of milk.

i'm not hungry, i didn't have much of an appetite today. instead of getting dinner i took a two hour nap, and then i had a dream in which my parents were dead and i got (violently) raped by a zombie. why, body, why?

swimkid18 : im now eating a sweet potato
swimkid18 : isnt life grand
silverbluey : i was getting zombie fucked 2 hours ago
silverbluey : tonight sucks
swimkid18 : u really might want to look into therapy
silverbluey : ahahaha
silverbluey : thanks
swimkid18 : im just sayin

2. there's something wrong with me. i can't remember things anymore. every so often i'll be talking with a friend or leaning back in a seat, stretching, and then suddenly get slammed by a 3-D sensory flashback: walking in the snow, at night, talking to someone about something. i can remember the shape of her mouth forming words, the color of her lipstick, the street we're walking down-- but i can't remember who it was. was it last week? last month? did it actually even happen? did i dream it? why can i see the trees and the cars behind her but not her face, not her name?
it happens to me a lot, such when i'm talking with a friend and another scene creeps over the present-- i "feel" more than i see things, although i've noticed that i can vividly recall certain images while i can't summon together the whole event.
it's unnerving, like i'm losing control over reality. i can't remember what i did 3 days ago, or a week ago; sometimes i can't even remember what i ate yesterday. everything feels like a dream nowadays.